Dennis Offend You, Yeah?

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst

I have a feeling this won’t end well, the possibility scares me stiff. To have it end so soon too? It would be a shame but I told myself I’d be an adult about it in the event it did. Rationally there wouldn’t be any reason not to find a solution. One evening shouldn’t let everything we’ve accomplished go to waste. If it does, bummer. The air just needs to be cleared by everyone. Of course this is me worrying too much though. A bad habit of mine that needs to be broken.

I feel sick and I feel fine.

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To be honest

I’d rather be with you, somewhere warm. Together, alone.

I’ve been keeping under the radar lately

But only to take a break from people. I felt like I was in dire need of one. I’ve felt pretty lonesome and sad after a conversation I had recently. The weekend my friends and I went up to Big Bear was a good and solid distraction but it didn’t last very long, the same sad and grey feeling came back and hit me just the same. I’ve been keeping to myself to recover and it’s kind of worked. It’s also helped come to terms with a few things but it sucks accepting logical things that don’t agree with your feelings.

I’ve seen this before and had my way but things didn’t go so well, so I might as well take one from past experience and just bite the bullet. I’ve been keeping busy and productive though. I’ve lost weight, my clothes don’t fit me like they used to. This was unintentional but hey, I look good. Haha.

I’ll never tell you how much I miss you and won’t understand why I do either. Feelings blow. Anyway, I’m done. I wrote this just in case any of you were wondering why i’ve been MIA. If you read all of this, thanks.

-D

I’d much rather be

Aloof than attached, honestly.

When people use the word “bomb” as an adjective

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Bloggy

I’m going to watch movies on Netflix by my lonesome again. I was hoping we would have our movie night tonight but that didn’t happen. Possibly tomorrow? Who knows. On a related matter, I feel like I’m stuck in the friend zone now, but then again I could have been there from the beginning. Maybe I’ve taken too long, I mean I want to make a move but what If that backfires and she doesn’t want to have any of that? I don’t want to risk our friendship, I value it greatly. Maybe I should just let things be. I’ll never know if I don’t try but I wont fail if I don’t try. 

Having feelings for someone is so complicated, I was better off not caring about anyone as more than just a friend. I couldn’t help it though, she’s so special. I question, overanalyze and regret everything I do, think or say and even the things I haven’t done yet. Even now I don’t know how I feel about the amount of writing about her in this post. My mind is constantly moving at 100mph.

I need some weed, that would be great actually. It would make watching movies on Netflix by myself a lot less pathetic and lonely. Anyway, I’m off, I went off on a tangent here. Good night folks.

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